4/5/25
dear diary,
this morning I had a dentist appointment. UGH. it’s fine. I don’t hate the dentist that much because I like knowing my teeth are shiny clean and perfect after. but, they always tell me I need to be better about flossing, and then I feel like a disappointment.
to add to having to be at the dentist at 9am on a Saturday, I ran into my EVIL PSYCHO NINTH GRADE BIOLOGY TEACHER. he was AWFUL. if you know me personally you know exactly who this man is. he’s terrifying and desperately needs a therapist or something. to give those of you who don’t know an idea, he’s one of those power-trippy teachers who likes to make fourteen-year-olds cry to feed his ego. if we didn’t have our homework on his desk BEFORE the bell rang (with only a 5-minute passing time between classes, btw), we would get a 0. he once yelled while we were watching a video in class to scare us. the most infamous moment for students in his class is the goldfish lab: gradually add ice cubes to a beaker containing a goldfish to throw off its homeostasis and slow its heart rate. if the fish died, we would fail the lab. I partipated as little as possible in this lab, trying to protest it for being cruel without having to actually face him reprimanding me. Being in his class gave me so much anxiety (on top of what I already have) that I will probably face some sort of health consequence in the future. I think most of my friend group including myself cried at least once in his presence. i’m sure you can tell that I will never let this go for the rest of my life given that this was 8 years ago. I hate to say that I will never forget him.
anyways, I walked into the dentist and he was sitting in the waiting area. he looked right at me like he was trying to figure out who I was. I almost turned around and left out of fear and then remembered that he is a middle aged man and I am 21 with a kind heart and my whole life ahead of me, and he doesn’t deserve the satisfaction of knowing I am scared of him.
now I am home, playing on my computer and writing, and it’s raining out. Sophie and my mom and I are ordering carry out for dinner later and then we will watch a movie (aiming for watching The Birdcage). signing off, love maddie.
